Someplace in texas

Just wanted to let y’all know i’m working on the UVERchallenge again.

DEEPLY SORRY
I am deeply sorry that you are a horrible person

your daddy didn’t love you very much I can see

And your mother gave you life

And here I am, calling you mean

I am deeply sorry that you are a horrible person

I am deeply sorry that you had to die

But you ate my cold, delicious plumbs!

I had been saving them, and then I saw your note

I am deeply sorry the fire did not kill you instantly

I am deeply sorry you are in the hospital

An eye for an eye

You broke my leg, I broke your body

I am deeply sorry it will take two years to heal your lower half

I am deeply your house burned down

I used a piece of wood that you chopped from my house to start the fire

I hope you forgive me

I am deeply sorry your mortgage was not paid

I am deeply sorry you filed for bankruptcy

I merely took double the amount you stole from me

I am deeply sorry you are now poor

I am deeply sorry that your poems suck

I am deeply sorry you lack the eloquence to write a poem to suffice

The hungry habits of people like me

I am deeply sorry you suck

Turns out I’m not as fearless as I once thought

You changed all that for me

I’m so afraid

So very afraid

That you won’t feel like I do…

So I could utter the famous words

The words may have you jump into my arms

Or never speak to me again

That’s why I walked away from your door 

Without uttering a single word

And now I’m on my way home 

Mumbling the silly words

To your favorite love song

If only…

If only…

If only I didn’t marvel at every word you’ve ever said

Follow your footsteps in the snow

Blush that one time

Your hand bumped mine as we reached for the same flower…

If only you hadn’t smiled that time

If only I could say it…

If only those words weren’t so hard

Then I wouldn’t be leaving your door step

Mumbling the words to your favorite song

If only…

If only…

I feel so filthy

Living in this world filled with lies…

How am I supposed to trust anyone?

I’m trying to find what is pure in this world

But it eludes me again and again

I’m so tired of being mislead

I trust myself to movements…

SUPPOSEDLY like minded,

But can they really be trusted?

Now that I look onto myself..

I refuse to rely on others to find the answers I seek.

I know there is purity

And I will find it!

After all, all it takes is one person

I trust my search to myself.

I know it’s out there…

I know it.

It is hard to face the walls we’ve built.

every time I walk close to mine,

I immediately freeze up.

One day,

I stared at it so long…

That my old self caught up to me!

It was so terrifying.

When I was finally able to open my eyes,

I remembered all my younger days.

All my past obstacles…

They were frightening too…

I wonder if i’m trying to hard and that is why I am always so afraid…

I closed my eyes and began climbing in that small moment.

Sometimes I stop at a large ledge.

I lay myself down and look up onto the night sky

And I try to see my older self in the stars,

Over the wall.

She stands in the rain

Arms out

eyes open wide

Mouth shut tight

Head up turned toward the sky

Wearing nothing but a pair of shorts and a tight tank top

Hoping the rain

will erase and clean everything

Hoping to be reborn with the incoming rainbow

But…

Life is not that simple.

The hipsters and the Vegans are always lecturing us to do what’s right for earth

I want to go beyond recycling

But I’m just one person

And eco cars are very expensive

What will I do?

I’m just one person and buying organic is just too expensive!

I want to help the children beyond me enjoy the world,

But saving the planet is costly…

Oh what am I to do?

Give me an eco car!

Help me buy locally!

Don’t just preach, reach!

Help me and my Eco life!